Thursday, September 29, 2005

hehs... im overly optimistic abt everything nowadays.. hahas... i tink wad i haf said is overly cliched as well... oh but it kinda helps.. the thing is... even though i feel motivated quickly... i lose that feeling veri quickly too.. hahas... hafta tink of ways to keep my motivated.. hahas.. i tink i hafta try not to let my mind wonder off whenever im trying to study.. cos when my mind finally makes it back.. i realise the time lapse is actually quite long.. hahahas... hmmz... glad i survived this week... tmrs almost the weekend.. but arh.. that also means one week nearer d-day. oh wellz. u cant haf everything. hahas.


focus... focus... focus...


hocus pocus.. hahahas... =p

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @1:45 PM

Monday, September 26, 2005

ha... back to sch todae... my momentums deteriorated.... esp after such a long break. ok.. maybe there shudnt haf been a break. hehs. but still. a good rest is wei le zou gen chang de lu mah rite... ok.. self-consolation. oh wellz. anw.. can see this week as the niam-ing period from all the teachers.. haiz. got back econs essay and mcq and chem paper 3. chem i got nth to say lar. since i intended to gif it up for this prelims. ha. oh wellz. i am kinda sad abt the kind of results im getting.. but wad can i complain abt. since i dun tink i was veri focused.. although i can rightfully say i studied harder for this prelims than for the midyears. but i guess my results might even be worse or the same. tmr getting back maths paper 1. arghs. i dun feel like getting it back. went thru the paper in class todae and i tink time is a huge factor. my time management for math papers is totally bad. i more or less gave up towards the last few long qns. the immense time pressure and panic doesnt do me good. at all. ha. wud like to sae im depressed abt my results.. but wads the point in wallowing in that self misery. might as well take this as a learning experience and hopefully rmr the lessons learnt. till the end. and hopefully they come in handy. hahas. and they had better. anw.. now is the final lap. its either make it or break it. i realli hope i make it. its the final major exam that is the important one. the final hurdle. run and jump. the greatest leap.

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @6:38 PM

Sunday, September 25, 2005

:: diana degarmo - don't cry out loud ::




Baby cried the day the circus came to town
'cause she didn't want parades just passin' by her
So she painted on a smile and took up with some clown
While she danced without a net upon the wire
I know a lot about 'er 'cause, you see
Baby is an awful lot like me



Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside, learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all



Baby saw that when they pulled that big top down
They left behind her dreams among the litter
The different kind of love she thought she'd found
There was nothin' left but sawdust and some glitter
But baby can't be broken 'cause you see
She had the finest teacher-that was me-I told 'er



Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all



Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost made it



Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @2:24 AM

Friday, September 23, 2005

hmm.. still post prelims.. been watching vcds.. juz been a super huge couch potato these past few daes.. hahas.. oh and i finally finished my cross stitch keychain juz now!! hahahas.. so proud of myself for actually completing that. nv realli finished any cross stitch before... all alwaes half half one.. hahas.. ok.. so wad if this keychain is onli a tiny cross stitch thingy.. i completed it! yays. hahas.


went out wif eileen ruina and shiyin yesterdae.. went marina square to eat.. lunched at changing appetites.. thnx gals for the treat! *huggz* =) hmm they haf free flow ice cream for their set lunches at 90 cents. hahas. but we din take that. anw i tink i ate enuff ice cream le. hahas. oh the food. i tink its fine.. juz that i tink if the pasta used wasnt that green spinach spag it might haf tasted better. yups. hmm anw.. basically we juz walked ard alot.. hahas.. went from marina to suntec to far east. whoos~ and i bought my slippers!! hahahahs. and we bought eileen her bag! shiny shiny! hahas.. saw so many familiar faces once again.. quite a few is i noe ur from my sch and u noe im from ur sch that kind... hahas. so we juz kinda stared at each other wif a flicker of recognition. hahahas.. hmmz. oh but anw... had a nice time walking ard..window shoppings fun too. hahas. oh and i love beard papas custard puffs! cripsy and not too sweet. just nice. heehees~ *grinz*


spent todae at home.. watched vcds blah blah blah. hahas.. 2 more daes to go.. before we r all back to our usual routines and mugging life. tts y these few daes i haf been truly slacking. to get the fun and play outta my system first. hahahas.. so that hopefully i can concentrate better next week onwards. yeahs. hopefully. but i still wanna go bowling. miss it. hmm.. maybe this weekend... hehs. shall go find pple. hmm.. miss the times when we made a fool outta ourselves and luffed so much. hahas. and the farnie coach. hahas.. i still rmr that backside protuding drills. damn hilarious. our scores were mostly zero all the wae. wif the occasional one pin struck down. hahas. hmm must thank my fren for getting me interested in bowling. its a realli fun sport. hahas. oh not to mention the time jas and i waited so long for gor to come. then we made up a song abt he and his fren. hahas. something abt bowling balls and bowling pins. cant realli rmr le.. hahas. the jokes the jokes. hmm wonder how gor and da-sao is doing. oh and that meng huan guy. hahas.


ok lar... was juz playing hexic wif eileen. eyes so tired now. blaahhhs. *yawns* toodles~

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @10:55 PM

Tuesday, September 20, 2005

haha haha haa.. last paper todae! at last prelims are over! though the papers were sucky. but they are all over now! over! so no point tinking abt them animore. yeahs. so now left the final As. whoa. oh well. shall start study next week. but for now. ahh.. let me just relax and get my brain cells back. hahas.


yups. so went town wif my mum and my cousin. hahas.. lunched at breeks. where we created quite a few jokes. hahas. and our various "escape" plans. hahahas.. the staff were so eager. i onli drank like abit of water then they started refilling already. hahas. they clear the plates fast too. hahas. i tink cos it was abit past lunch hour and i kinda think they are overstaffed. hahas. i was saeing if we drop something on the floor.. maybe like five of the staff will rush to pick it up. hahas. ok evil. im sorrie. but oh i like their cream mushroom sauce. but we almost cudnt recognise that those were mushrooms. the ones in the menu looked much bigger and resembled mushrooms more. but nevertheless the taste was great. hahas.


ooh.. todae is such an eating dae for me. first time i ate so much when im out wif family. hahas. im sure my cousin eileen agrees wif me. hahas! =p aiya wad to do... hungry mahs.. hahas.. so first we had yami yoghurt. i had the lime one wif honeydew. i tink the peach one wif strawberry quite nice too! i love their strawberry toppings!! so sweet! hahas. the last time i ate yami yoghurt was like more or less ten years ago? i rmr i ate it when i was realli young. and when i tried eileen's peach one.. all the flavours came back to me. the peach one tastes great wif wheatgerm. i rmr that. hahahas.. kept eating that all the time a long time ago. =) haf been wanting to eat yami for a long time now.. finally had it todae. ahh happy.


then walked down to far east to shop. saw many many clothes and shoes and stuff. but i onli bought a denim skirt. tried this realli comfy slippers.. but din buy that. nvm. now i know wad kind of slippers im looking for. hahas. those slippers were realli realli comfy!! shud haf juz bought it. ahh. aniwaes.. we realli walked quite a fair bit all over far east. hahas. quite tired after that. then i saw that shop selling the fried mars bar featured in the papers recently. it looked and sounded nice... so i bought! haha! nice nice!! warm and crispy.. a little melted choc on the inside.. u haf a choice of eating it wif either choc or vanilla ice cream. so the overall feeling is warm and crisp wif a little cold.. not bad.. =) oh in the meantime opp that shop was gelare. my mum wanted somewhere to sit.. then i remembered that gelare had this half price thingy but i din rmr wad dae it was on.. then we saw the sign saeing that tues was the half price dae... so yay! we had gelare waffles!! hahas. the mocha chip and cappucino ice cream was nice! and i like their waffles. hehes. hmm.. so i tink i had like 3 servings of dessert todae. whooos~ loved it. =)


wow. once again. my dae has revolved around food. food makes me happy. esp desserts.. esp chocs and ice cream!! wheehees~ *grinz* but as i was saeing.. one dae shopping not enuff one lar. so we hafta do this again sometime!! yeah couz? since we hafen bought the other things that we wanna buy yet... hahas. and this time lets grab jan along! yayy! =)


oh i wanna watch quidam!! but the tix are so ex. haiz. oh i wanna watch nightwatch. it seems nice. oh and i wanna go bowling again. so long nv bowl le.. kinda miss it. kinda miss the 1st 3 months bowling cum training sessions too. hmmz. ahh wellz. ok lar. aniwaes.. enjoyed my self todae. haf such a great dae and was quite high. eileen lets go out again!!! hahahas... but.. now quite tired. hahas. okies lar.. nitez~ *waves*

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @11:15 PM

Wednesday, September 14, 2005

hmm. no more papers for this week.. heres wad i feel abt the papers so far...


econs paper 3 : ok lar.. although i din realli finish my last qn.. my handwriting at the end was like so huge. and i tink i was crapping.. hahas..


maths paper 1 : hmmz. almost cudnt finish the paper.. i haf come up wif a new logic. maths is something to be done in ur leisure time. cos actually the qns is can do one. u juz need the time. yups.. so ended up rushing through the last few qns.. and the qns were so not easy. and i cudnt be bothered to tink animore. so final conclusion? ahhhh!!!!


chem paper 3 : this was this morning. demoralized. haiz.. first qn already dunno how to do liao. oh wellz.. so my final thots? oh my gdness?!??!


ahh. left the remaining papers next week. hmm guess i shud juz try to internalize everything soon. yups. and maybe y i tink this prelims is so hard cos i din realli study and memorise. ha i often live my life in regret. anw... oh wellz. jia you to all.. its gonna be over soon! yeah!! hmm i realise im highly optimistic when it comes to exams.. i tink tts called self-denial and self-delusion. hahas.. oh wadever. as long as it can make me feel happier abt things can le! =)
oh and all the best to those taking physics tmr! *waves pompoms* =)


oohs and my mum asked if i wanna go shopping next tues! hahahas.. yayys! cant wait! hehes..




astalavista! *waves*

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @6:51 PM

Saturday, September 10, 2005

hehs.. its saturdae.. doing econs todae.. hmm tink im giving up on chem for the prelims. hahas.. tts bad rite. oh wellz.. aniwaes... hoping i can finish econs by tmr.. blahhhs.. giving up on international trade.. was deciding between that and rog.. yups.. aniwaes.. was at coffeebean studying wif shiyin on thurs.. there were these two women at the next table... i tink they are teachers.. cos one of them kept complaining abt this sec 1 student who apparently forged letters and lied to the teachers about her address blah blah blah.. it was quite entertaining listening to them. hahas. ok.. yups... nothign much more to sae le.. oh yar.. watched herbie yesterdae!! veri veri nice!! ahh how nice it wud be to haf a car which can actually drive itself. hahas.. lindsay lohan is veri pretty.. =) nice movie.. quite farnie too! hahas.. yups.. ok lar.. shall end here. tataz~



the ever-present ache

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @8:51 PM

Wednesday, September 07, 2005

ahhaa... kinda bored at home.. hahas.. but im not here to rant. bleahs. =p although i still insist thats wad blogs are for... hahahahs... hmm.. mid week. supposed to go out study todae... didnt in the end.. hmm.. led me to tink of some things all over again... ahh wellz. i broke my resolution again. hahas. tts me. so i was totally sian-ed diao. arghs. hate this feeling. nvm.. at least i haf my daily badminton sessions wif my bro to enjoy. hahas. yesterdae i got hit left right centre. the stupid shuttlecock hit on the left side of my forehead.. on the right... at the back of my head. my right knee.. my left knee.. aiya.. i juz keep getting hit. thnx to my bro who anyhow serve. blahhhhs. but it was fun. good workout too. hahas.. even though we were playing mostly sitting on the ground. got more height this wae. hahas... =p soo... yeah... hahas... mid week le. ganbatte!



y do i still feel the occassional aches.. and that stupid wrenching feeling.

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @1:23 PM

Tuesday, September 06, 2005

ahhh... todaes tuesdae le.. onli spent yesterdae looking thru alittle bit of maths.. haiz. oh but anw.. i spent one and a half hours exercising yesterdae... wahhaas... did the bicycle thing for like 20 mins.. did some calf exercises... then played badminton wif my bro.. in the house... wahhahahs.. gdness... these are the stuff i put myself up to when i dun feel like studying.. hahas.. aniwaes.. playing badminton wif me is alwaes a disaster.. hahas.. i cant play. bleahs. but anwiae i had fun.. and my hands were "wu li" after that... hahas.. my bro and i came up wif different waes to play badminton.. the longest one we did was to play sitting on the floor.. hahas... and i devised a new wae of serving... hahas... fun fun~ =) oh and now my calf muscles are aching. blahh... =p


hmm a little less than one week left le.. im sure everyones mugging like crazy now.. so.. good luck to all u guys!! we can all do it de yar? yayy yupyups!! *waves pompoms* =)




ooh yes yes! was reading the papers yesterdae and now i tink chow chow dogs are the cutest dogs alive!! so fluffy and so super furry... they are so.. poofy!! =)











dun u tink so???


The Chow Chow is a stocky dog with broad skull and small, rounded ears. The breed has a very dense coat that is either smooth or rough. The fur is particularly thick around the neck, giving the distinctive ruff or mane. The coat may be one of several colours including reddish-brown (described as "red"), black, blue, cinnamon, cream, or white. Not all these colour varieties are recognised as valid in all countries. Individuals with patchy or particoloured coats are considered to be outside the breed standard. Chow Chows are unusual in having a blue-black tongue and very straight hind legs that result in a rather stilted gait.

While now commonly kept as a companion dog, the Chow Chow has a reputation for being a wilful and independent breed that is sometimes difficult to train.


Like many heavy-set dogs, Chow Chows may be prone to hip dysplasia. They may also be succeptable to entropion, an eye irritation caused by an eyelid abnormality.


It is a very unique type of dog, thought to be one of the oldest recognisable breeds. A bas-relief from 150 BC (during the Han Dynasty) includes a hunting dog similar in appearance to the Chow Chow. Recent DNA analysis confirms that this is one of the oldest breeds of dog. Chow Chows were originally bred as a general-purpose working dog for herding, hunting, and guarding. The breed has also been used to pull sleds and for meat and fur.

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @10:07 AM

Sunday, September 04, 2005

heyheyys.. hmm.. went lib todae.. went late cos got other things to do and plus the stupid rain came suddenly.. so heavy somemore.. hmm.. so i tink i left shiyin there alone for like 2 hours plus. sorrie gal! aniwae when i finally went.. saw quite a few familiar faces.. all my primary sch mates.. diana... weicong.. christine ( i tink tts her name.. though i din noe her personally.. hahas...) ... some guy who is also in aj who i just found out last year that he was from my primary sch too.. hehs... the sofa i was on was quite comfy.. though the place was freezing. my windbreaker didnt realli help. oh wellz. hahas. oh but then but then.. before all that... as usual i had to haf food. so we went ntuc for awhile.. got my candies! hehes.. so i was happy enough to start studying.. even though it meant i had sneak the sweets into my mouth cos lib cannot eat. shiyin got a sushi set for lunch of which i took one. hahas. =p then basically just sat there freezing my ass off.. ploughed my wae thru one set of notes. hahas. oh and anw the stupid lib was so noisy. all those kids running abt downstairs. we cud hear them from upstairs. but later on we moved to a table at the other end.. there was quite quiet. and more freezing. so its either the noise or the cold. hahas. i choose the cold. yesh. =)



then went for dinner at mos. it was then i realise im getting slower n slower. my minds not realli there. its up there somewhere floating abt. im not in focus. arghs. die. wads happening to me. i tink i haf realli been spending my last week floating abt. my minds somewhere else. oh yes and another thing. although i haf been like staying in sch to study or gg to lib to mug.. im not so sure all that i studied is in my head. or rather are all that gonna stay in my head? given my short term memory and the 7 more daes ahead. i realli dunno. wellz. i guess i had better hope for the best. oh... aiya but huh... i hafen realli studied much i realised. my revisions realli slow. arghs. not good. but then again. there are onli 7 more daes.. most prob is cannot finish studying everything de lar. i noe myself. hahas. right now im sure there are pple hu haf already more or less finished studying or haf already finished. wonderful. y cant i be like that. haiz. ok lar. no use complaining rite. y shudnt i juz get the hell outta here n go do something useful rather than sit here staring at this screen and typing out my grievances. ahh.. the wonders of blogging. ur blog is like a fren who cant talk back to you yet u cant just sae wadever u want to it. hahas. yes yes. ok. i noe im getting mad. gg a little bonkers already. ok.. maybe not a little. a lot. hahas. oh wadever. aiyo wad am is saeing lar. ok im not making sense animore. not even to myself. much less to others. during dinner i was like staring at the wall half the time. and my mind was just wondering. yikes. i seriously tink pongz just thot i was a plain nutcase. hehs. but nvm. my ebi rice burger was nice. hahas. =p and the wall had cracks in it which i suppose are part of the design. hehs.



oh wellz. i tink i haf crapped alot. so to whoevers reading this... then again i dun tink anybody will.. but... aniwae... if u haf reached this point... i salute you. u haf jus gone thru the mindless and super nonsense grumblings of a nutcase. woohooz! and one more thing. i realised i haf become more critical and judgemental about pple.. tts not realli good izit. i found this out when i was chatting wif shiyin a few daes ago.. im highly biased. ah wellz. i will try to change that yeah.. yes. =) hahahas... OKOK. i get it.



i.

shall.

just.

stop.

typing.



ok. byee~ *waves*

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @11:31 PM

Saturday, September 03, 2005

hmm.. heard this over the radio quite some time ago... i thot it was quite interesting.. deep questions.. hahas.. there were many others.. but cud onli catch two.. =)





" if stores proclaim that they are open 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, then why do they still need padlocks on their doors? "



" why do we need a driver's license to buy liquor when we cant drink and drive? "



hahahas... interesting~

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @3:17 PM

Friday, September 02, 2005

hmm... didnt plan to blog anytime soon.. but chanced upon this verse and i thot it was nice... =) oh yes... gp prelim was todae... no comments. one sub down.. 3 more to go... anywae... heres the verse.. =)





Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful and not conceded.
It is never rude and selfish.
It does not take offence and it is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sense of delight in the truth.
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope in doing due work, whatever comes.

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @11:05 PM