Sunday, July 31, 2005

haha.. changed my blogskin yet again... decided on someting simpler this time.. no stressful music or irritating cursors!! haha! =) so this time onli got black n white. yayys. simple. hmm and i love this background.. hahas.. hmm.. sometimes i feel like getting a personal blog.. like my cousins.. and just typing whatever i want there... but then... i doubt i will be able to maintain two. so... i shall juz rant myself crazy in my head. i sound like a nutcase? hahas. whatever. bleahs. =p oyasumi!

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @12:51 AM

Saturday, July 30, 2005

..:: inside your heaven - carrie underwood ::..



I've been down
Now I'm blessed
I felt a revelation coming around
I guess its right, it's so amazing
Everytime I see you
I'm alive
You're all I've got
You lift me up
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes



I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind



I wanna be inside your heaven
When we touch, when we love
The stars light up
The wrong becomes undone
Naturally, my soul surrenders
The sun and the moonlight
All my dreams are in your eyes



And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
And I wanna be the earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathing in
A soothing wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
When minutes turn to days and years
When mountains fall, I'll still be here
Holdin you until the day I die



And I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be inside your heaven
Take me to the place you cry from
Where the storm blows your way
I wanna be earth that holds you
Every bit of air you're breathin' in
A soothin' wind
I wanna be inside your heaven
Oh yes I do
I wanna be inside your heaven

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @2:20 PM

wellz.. this week was a kinda long one.. quite draggy.. hahas.. and im still my tired self.. and taht stupid testimonial thingy... stayed up till like 2 plus on thurdae nite... or rather fridae morning to crap finish.. onli to find out actually mondae hand up also can.. ?!?! ah wellz. but nvm. at least i got it over and done with. yeahs. but was so happy yesterdae after school... cos it was fridae!! fridaes r officially my favourite daes of the week.. hahahas.. *grinz* =) oh and i went home for lunch yesterdae then slacked.. hahahas.. and i slept for 12 hours!!! wahahahasz... super shuang~ but so slack rite.. i noe i noe.. i needed to compensate for my lack of slp... and it seems to haf worked... for now. hahahas.. okies lar.. nothing i wanna sae at the moment.. tataz~ *waves*

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @2:01 PM

Sunday, July 24, 2005

..:: from the freaky friday OST - take me away ::..



yeah, yeah


get up, get out
move on, move up,
there's no doubt
i'm all wrong, you're right
it's all the same with you
i'm too fit, too fat
you miss why
so why
so why
so why
so why


on and on
and on and on
on and on
and on and on


::Chorus::
don't want to grow up
i want to get out
hey!
take me away
i want to shout out
take me away
away
away
away
away


round and round
here we go again
same old start, same old end
turn my head and turn back again
same old stuff
never ends


do this, do that
can't deal, can't deal with that
i tune in, tune out
i've heard it all before
hello, goodbye
never asking me why
goodbye
goodbye
goodbye


on and on
and on and on
on and on
and on and on


::Chorus::
don't want to grow up
I want to get out
hey, take me away
i want to shout out
yake me away
away
away
away
away


::Guitar Solo::


::Chorus::
don't want to grow up
i want to get out
hey, take me away
i want to shout out
take me away
away
away
away
awayyyyyayyyyayyyyy


::Chorus::
don't want to grow up
i want to get out
hey, take me away
i want to shout out
take me away
away
away
away
away


round and round here we go again
same old story, same old end
turn my head and turn back again
same old stuff
never ends
turn my head and turn back again
same old stuff
never ends





hahas.. heard this song when watching freaky friday.. =) love it alot.. it rocks!! kept repeating this song just now... hahas.. rawking song! the electric guitar solo rawks too... =)

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @12:24 AM

Friday, July 22, 2005

stupid computer. i had one long entry typed out already. and it juz restarted on me halfwae. arghs. and i dun exactly feel like typing everything out again. this 'recover post' function doesnt realli work. hmpf. one nice entry wasted.


anw.. was juz saeing im glad that its finally fridae.. and its finally the weekend... i haf been so tired lately.. ever since sch reopened.. im juz so tired no matter how long or how much i sleep. haiz.. anw it has been a long n tiring week.. realised i hafen been blogging much.. is that good? hmm that also means im not switching my com on that often too.. so i guess thats kinda like a good thing.. hahas... cos there isnt anything to do online aniwae.. last time i still had you and others to tok to.. hehs.. not that i dun haf pple to tok to now.. its just not the same.. i dunno how to describe it.. but.. its just not the same.. hell wadever. i guess things change. i noe things change. so lets just all move on.. there r other things in life to look forward to yeah? yeah!! woohoooz! staying n rooting urself in the past n plonking urself into memories doesnt realli help u at the end of the dae.. cos when u finally get back to the real world.. the memories hafta get stashed away somewhere again. memories r nice to relive.. but that cant be permanent. not ever. reality is best. yayys. and wads more.. i love my frens now all the same!! *smilez* a bigg hug n kiss to u all! to my sec sch gals.. moi bamboo sista.. serena.. cher... and of cos xiao ning... moi dear girls now.. elephant.. ruina n shiyin... my other classmates.. and my school mates.. dunno wad i wud haf become if i didnt get to noe u all.. hahas.. at least im still the same mad old me. hahas.. the same crappy.. lame and mad me. hahas. and a big thank you to u guys for bearing wif my crazy old waes.. hehes... =) hmm... one question though.. y did i just sae all that? wahhahah.. oh wellz.. as i said.. im mad rite? so i juz type wadever im tinking abt right now lor.. hahahas.. so yeah.. i guess the frens u haf r pretty impt.. in anyone's life.. yups... *grinz* =)



ANIWAE.... back to school stuffs.. ahhahas.. mondae die liao lar... so many things... got transition metals test... maths crv test... and econs trade essay.. oh my gdness... my weekend!!! arghs. so many things to do.. oh wellz... cant wait for the national dae hols... even though that means the prelims will be even nearer by then.. oh wellz... hmm.. im deprived of rest its not doing me any good. im juz so slpy n tired. my headaches n shoulderaches r coming back more often now... arghs. right now im hafing another of my shoulderaches.. haiz. yup. physical n mental fatigue. hahas. im cant seem to focus or comcentrate.. cant realli sit down n get things done.. im alwaes falling aslp either at my table or on the floor.. gdness... oh well... nothing to sae.. hahas...


ah wellz... gdness... my this blog entry is so luan4!! so darn messy. no structure one. hahas.. its like juz random thots off the top of my head. i guess.. thats like that state of my mind n life now. hahas.. totally messy. hahas. ok... wow another lor sor entry from the naggy aunty. okokok.. aunty signing off. tataz~ *waves*

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @5:53 PM

Saturday, July 16, 2005

:: i bruise easily - natasha beddingfield ::




My skin is like a map
of where my heart has been
And I can't hide the marks
but it's not a negative thing

So I let down my guard
drop my defences
down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall
with no safety net
to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave
like a love heart carved on a tree

I bruise easily
can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I found your finger prints on a glass of wine
Do you know your leaving them all over this heart of mine too
If I never take this leap of faith I'll never know
So I'm learning to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow

I bruise easily
so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave
like a love heart carved on a tree

I bruise easily
can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily
I bruise easily

Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you

So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle

I bruise easily
so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave
like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily
I bruise easily

I bruise easily
so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave
like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily
can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily
I bruise easily
I bruise easily
I bruise easily

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @6:15 PM

Friday, July 15, 2005

..:: struggling is nature's way of strengthening you ::..



hmm took this sentence off 'lost'.. the new channel 5 drama series.. ok... not realli new.. relatively lar huh.. hahas.. mr lark said this to charlie... i found it quite meaningful... he gave this example of a moth in a cocoon.. it was abt time for the moth to leave the cocoon.. then mr lark was saeing he could just use his knife to split the cocoon open to help the moth and make it easier for it to climb out.. but then the moth would be too weak and it would not survive. thus struggling is nature's way of strengthening you. i know this example has been used like so many times.. but neverthelss its meaningful.


it is inevitable that life will haf its many struggles.. its just whether u can overcome them or not. oh wellz. the past week was quite busy.. catching up on stuffs.. homework.. tuts... and it passed quite fast too.. it seems like onli yesterdae that it was mondae morning and i was wishing fridae wud come quickly... hahas.. the daes dun seem as draggy as before.. which is kinda good.. =)
y am i even here.. i dun realli haf anithing i feel like blogging abt.. oh wellz.. the irony.. i sae i dun anithing to blog abt yet im typing so much. haaz. recently i tink i haf become over-sensitive.. dunno why.. juz been thinking alot.. abt stuffs.. haiz. paranoia and nostalgia is also setting in again. i find myself missing alot of things... people.. memories... alot. and my modds seem to be changing veri fast last few daes.. im gg bonkers... help. ahh wellz. i will get over it. soon. hopefully. oh but then again. perhaps melancholy is my best fren. hahas. im such a hopeless freak. oh and i tink somethings going on. but i dun tink i want to noe. neither shall i keep tinking abt it n getting upset at any rate. i shall juz not care. at all. w h a t e v e r.




..ynapmocruoyssimi..stnemegaruocneruoyssimi

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @6:56 PM

Saturday, July 09, 2005

juz woke up abt an hour ago.. fell aslp at abt 9 plus... hahahaz... i realised when u haf lotsa things to do.. u suddenly juz dun feel like doing any of them.. haiz.. now already got so many things to do le.. and i hafen even touch my gp hol hmwk.. hahas.. and its already like 2 weeks after the hols... oh the irony... lalalaz... anywaes... yup.. this weekend is gonna be filled wif catching up wif work n studying.. next week got essays on production & cost n market structures.... gdness.. p&c essays r hard to write and mkt structures haf so many things to memorise... oh wellz... kk... tataz.. *waves*


:: imitation is a form of flattery ::



wadevers happened probably serves as a wake up call perhaps? just hope i can listen to it.

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @12:37 AM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

hmm todae was the career fair thingy.. once again.. smu managed to put across the point that its like gonna be the best uni in the future.. but their intake is like onli 1100? onli 1 in 9 can get admitted? gdness. but i like their new campus.. hmmz. oh wellz..

oh then there were those talks.. i like the radio one... veri entertaining! hahas.. and the dj had like an endless supply of cds n posters to give away.. hahas.. i like her voice.. was listening to her programme juz now.. hahas.. =)

oh din get to go for the imh one.. cos the radio talk ended quite late... but i tink they said for psychology u wud hafta go overseas for the post grad degree or something.. otherwise u cant practise in singapore.. gdness.. i realise singapore is quite limited in a way.. even for tourism also hafta go overseas at the end... for courses like hotel management... and i tink that is fun...

so if i realli wanna stick to psychology.. which is most likely for me.. or the social sciences.. i will go ntu bahs.. cos they haf direct course to psychology.. for nus u will hafta study the general arts n social sciences first... before u can start psychology... hmm. guess distance shudnt be a barrier animore.. but then again.. there is the post grad degree to tink abt... singapore realli dun haf huh.. cos if there isnt then i dun see the point in studying in singapore first.. when u hafta go overseas in the end.. oh wellz.. we shall see...



tired tired tired. thats the reality of life.

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @11:04 PM

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

hehs... first dae back at sch.. my eyes veri dry the whole dae..so painful... so tired. haiz. shud go sleep earlier tonite. guess its gonna be a super hectic term from now on... lotsa things to do n catch up on. oh wellz. hmm dun play play liaoz. ganbatte! =)


hmm... then todae civics... had that tok abt personal statements by SMU and that tok abt preparation.. guess all that amounted to some kind of prep n motivational talk for us.. now i tink its realli realli hard to enter SMU.. u realli realli hafta be some kind of bright n outstanding individual to catch their eye.. guess thats their culture bahs... ur personality must realli SHINE thru.. and that personal statement thingy... oh wellz... dun tink got any achievements to include at all lor... i guess i noe im a passive person. active juz doesnt work for me.. hahas... hmm.. shall hafta find tings to do after the As bah... yups. hahas. oh and that talk abt prepare prepare n prepare.. guess its kinda true... and they were like saeing they regretted starting preparation in onli july august. and shiyin told me that that ex-ajcian was like a model student back then. gdness.. if she regrets starting work in july.. then i tink the rest of us can juz die. hmm ok. maybe not all of us.. most of us? ok. some of us. ahhhh... stressed. left like 4 plus more months b4 the big thing. ahhhhh... haiz.
oh and tmr theres career fair.. ah wellz.

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @6:00 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005

leo (july 23 - aug 22)
:: [ you've had a guardian angel for soem time now -- someone who's been watching over you from behind the scenes, making sure that absolutely nothing happens to you that shouldnt. prepare to meet that guardian. ] ::

hahas... so far this has been the nicest horoscope for leo from the papers.. hahahs.. this one sounds extremely nice.. hehes... *smilez*

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @1:26 AM

Saturday, July 02, 2005

haha.. todaes bros burfdae... so went out for dinner... so full.. *burps* hahas.. then after dinner went potong pasir cc to let my bro practise his archery.. whoa.. he looked so zai when drawing the bow n shooting!! and his arm strength is so powerful!! gdness... he has the potential manz... hahas.. =) *grinz* then he let me try!!! gdness i took SO LONG to get ready.. cudnt even keep the arrow straight!! wahahhahhas... and holding up the bow was enuff to make my arm ache already... its that heavy.. not to mention my other arm was shaking when i drew the bow.. ahhas.. everything was trembling... =p hahas.. but at last i cud do it!! managed to shoot the arrow at the yellow portion of the target paper!! hehes... quite not bad le lar... hahahaz... yayy!! i noe how to shoot!! archery rawks!! *wide grinz* =) hope gg again tmr.. hahahahz.... waaahhhh... arms r so suan now.... tataz~
happy burfdae my brother!! hahas..

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @11:58 PM

haha had a nice dae todae.... woke up then played com until like 2 plus.. then went out shopping wif mum while bro went to watch movie.. but he didnt in the end... cos the movie was too late... oh anw.. yar.. bought a pair of bossini jeans and a top from ebase.. wanted to get that glitter denim skirt.. but that ebase outlet didnt haf it... there was onli the same design in the form of jeans... oh wellz.. nvm.. hahas.. then went home to watch spiderman 2!! nice show!! i agree that its like the onli show so far whereby the sequel is better than the first.. hahahas... cant wait for spiderman 3!! in 2007!!! so far. nvm. patience is a virtue~ hahahas.. =p hmm i tink tobey maguires eyes r nice.. blue blue ones.. boyish smile too... =)

:: with great power comes great responsibility ::

-[ leFt al0ne... ]- @12:25 AM